Fragments of the Quiet Mind

“Some songs ask to be felt, not performed. He chose the wrong answer.” I wasn’t even planning to watch. I was just flipping channels, letting boredom pick for me, when The Clash came on — that singing competition where emotions get belted louder than the lyrics. I stayed. Not because I follow the show (I don’t), but because I heard someone say he was going to sing Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls. That song doesn’t just play — it haunts . It’s stitched into the background of moments I don’t talk about often. Quiet heartbreaks. Long drives. Things left unsaid. The contestant, apparently, was a crowd favorite. Maybe it was his backstory, or his journey, or the way the camera loved him. I had no idea who he was. I didn’t carry his narrative. All I had was the song. And then he sang it. And I wished he hadn’t. He didn’t cover Iris . He performed over it — louder, shinier, emptier. What was once a song that bled quietly now sounded like it was trying to prove something. He turned a confess...

  I once drafted a three-paragraph reply to a message that only said “cool.” Then I deleted it and sent a thumbs-up. Not because the longer version was wrong—but because it felt too much . Too honest, too layered, too likely to be misunderstood in a world that measures meaning by brevity and speed. That blinking “typing…” bubble is its own kind of limbo. A space where we practice vulnerability without risk. A modern confessional booth with no priest on the other side—just the fear of being “seen” the wrong way. It’s easier to live in the anticipation of a message than to deal with its consequences. We’ve mastered the art of holding back. You draft a message to clarify your tone, to explain your silence, to ask a question that matters—and then you close the app. Not because you changed your mind, but because you started imagining the worst possible reply. Or no reply at all. So you send a meme instead. Something safe. Something that doesn’t require anyone to actually respond —ju...

Way back in college, I had this quiet hobby of slipping into book sales. Not the big ones—just the messy, dusty tables tucked inside Centermall, one of Baguio’s oldest malls. The kind of place where the lights flicker and the scent of rust and forgotten pages lingers longer than the shoppers. It wasn’t about finding something specific. It was the hunt. The maybe. One afternoon, I came across a book with no title on the spine. The cover was soft, torn in the corners, like it had been through several hands that never loved it properly. Inside, on the first page, someone had scribbled in pencil: “Don’t finish this unless you’re ready to lose something.” I didn’t buy it. I kept turning the thought over in my head though, for years. I don’t even remember the plot. Just the feeling it gave me: like someone had whispered a secret then vanished before I could respond. We never really crave the thing, do we? We crave the tension before the having. The idea of it. The fiction we write a...

“Some people fade the loudest when they leave in silence.” Most of the day was spent watching that tiny green dot appear and disappear. Not hoping—just noticing. Like waiting for a storm that never fully arrives. A one-word reply was enough to hold the whole weight of an unfinished history. Nothing dramatic ever happened. No final fight. Just a slow erosion. The kind that doesn’t make noise until it’s already gone. Still, I couldn’t shake the sense that this thing—whatever it was—had weight. Had velocity. Something unnameable, but not imaginary. There’s a particular silence that comes with knowing too much and saying nothing. We thread ourselves between lines, overanalyzing tone, spacing, absence. And in that absence, we find a weird kind of clarity. Understanding without explanation. Agreement without contact. Melpomene doesn’t wail here. She hums. It’s not a tragedy worth headlines—just one that repeats quietly in the background of otherwise normal days. Somehow, not speaking became ...

Creation is not a performance—it is a necessity. We create not to be seen, but because there is something within us that insists on becoming. Something unnamed. Something unsummoned, but persistent. Most people mistake destruction for power, yet it is restraint that reveals true strength. To destroy is easy—it is passive entropy. But to build something from silence, to shape what isn’t there into what now is—that’s where the divine whispers. And most days, we lack the patience for divinity. Creative expression, at its core, is a private rebellion. It is the unseen ritual of those who refuse to be boxed in, labeled, or diagrammed. We mask our truths in metaphors, hide behind pseudonyms, not to deceive, but to breathe freely. The world demands clarity. We answer with riddles. I’ve never felt compelled to explain myself. Not because I am proud, but because explanations waste energy—and energy, once distorted, rarely returns intact. This world spins with commentary. Silence is my protes...