It always starts the same: light through blinds, the click of the kettle, the soft groan of plumbing. You don’t realize you’re building a ritual until the ritual disappears. Then suddenly, the absence has shape.
My old apartment had a window that faced nothing special—just a brick wall, faded graffiti, a stubborn weed that grew through concrete. I used to stare at it while waiting for the toaster to pop. I never thought I’d miss that view. But now, it visits me uninvited. In sterile hotel rooms. In the blur between meetings. In the quiet moments before a notification chimes.
We think we miss people or places. Sometimes, what we miss is the version of ourselves that existed in those hours we never thought to notice.
Mornings are forgettable by design. They're repetition, maintenance, routine. But there's something sacred in their silence. The way the world is half-asleep, and so are you. No performance yet. No crisis. Just the click of a spoon against ceramic and the low hum of a city waking up.
Nostalgia isn’t loud—it whispers in the ordinary.
The eggs you used to ruin the same way. The uneven floor tile in the kitchen. The two seconds of stillness after you shut the fridge and before you move again. These are the things no one warns you you’ll mourn. Not the birthdays. Not the endings. Just the mornings that asked nothing from you except that you show up.
It’s funny. I spent so long trying to escape monotony, only to realize it was never monotony. It was continuity. And now that everything changes faster than I can name it, I look back and think: Maybe peace wasn’t the absence of chaos. Maybe it was the repetition I once resented.
The world teaches you to chase the extraordinary. But I think the soul archives the uneventful. The mornings that felt like nothing… until you notice they don’t happen anymore.
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