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The Fragility of Certainty

  Certainty feels like a promise we make to ourselves—something solid, unmoving, to keep the chaos at bay. But how often does it really hold? We tell ourselves we know who we are, what we want, what the world is, but then something shifts—a chance encounter, a quiet realization, or even just the slow erosion of time—and everything we thought we knew suddenly feels small, brittle. It’s unsettling, this unraveling of the known. Certainty doesn’t break with a loud crash but with a quiet crumble, like sand slipping through our fingers. We tighten our grip, thinking we can hold on, but the more we cling, the more it falls away. And then we’re left standing there, palms empty, wondering if it was ever ours to keep. But maybe that’s where the truth lives—not in the things we’re sure of, but in the spaces left behind when those certainties fade. It’s strange to say, but I think there’s a kind of freedom in not knowing. Certainty pins us down, defines us too neatly, while uncertainty leaves...

Terms and Isolation

I found myself talking to the walls during the lockdown. Not in the way people think—no dramatic outbursts or madness—but in that quiet, desperate way you mutter to empty spaces when the idea of being seen has faded. There’s a loneliness that’s not cinematic. No rain, no music. Just the stale company of your own silence, broken only by the endless ping of emails and notifications. But those messages weren’t from people. They were from apps, brands, employers. “You’re essential,” they said, while handing me crumbs and expecting gratitude. The virus separated us physically, sure. But the system? The system kept us isolated long after the virus faded, turning our loneliness into a subscription model. I noticed how every notification wasn’t about connection, but consumption. How grief became a product you could journal through, exhaustion a badge of honor, and self-care a market segment. Capitalism didn’t care if I was broken; it only cared that I kept buying the illusion of healing. I ...

Dance

Take this:  Have you ever felt like you're dancing to a rhythm that only you can hear? As Friedrich Nietzsche once said, "Those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music." In a world that yearns for conformity, I find solace in the haunting beauty of dancing to the melodies that others cannot hear.  Well basically, this quote has been a repeating theme of my existence and has resonated deeply with me, capturing the essence of my journey through life and the judgments I have faced along the way, a journey plagued by the piercing notes of overthinking which oftenly leads to melancholy. You see, there is a peculiar joy in finding your own melody amidst a world that often prefers conformity. There is a certain sadness that accompanies the act of dancing alone. It is a bittersweet symphony, filled with longing and a profound sense of isolation. It's as if I have stumbled upon a secret symphony, hidden within the recesses of my so...

Reflections and Existence

  The soul is a fragile and ephemeral thing.   Tethered to the body like a ship to an anchor, it navigates the treacherous waters of existence with uncertain footing, and most often than not, unsure of its own direction. Like a lone sailor adrift in the boundless ocean, the soul searches for a purpose, a beacon of light to guide its journey through the tempestuous waves of life. It navigates through treacherous waters with an uncertain footing, buffeted by the winds of fate and tossed about by the capricious tides of destiny. The very essence of its being is an unquenchable thirst for meaning, a yearning to discover the purpose that lies beyond the horizon. With every sunrise and sunset, it scans the horizon in search of that elusive guiding star, that flicker of hope that will keep it on course. It struggles against the relentless currents that threaten to pull it under, fighting with all its might to stay afloat. Yet, even in the darkest of nights, it clings to the belief th...

Mercy in the Machine

I used to believe in karma—naïve, I know. That moral ledger balancing debts and credits, handing out justice on time. Turns out, karma’s broken. Or maybe it never existed, just a myth we told ourselves to sleep at night. The worst people don’t just slip through the cracks. They built the cracks. They thrive in the ruins, stacking money on the bones of those who trusted them. It’s not a game anymore. It’s a machine—greedy, ruthless, and programmed to reward the cruelest operators. The bad don’t just get ahead—they consume whole worlds, leaving scraps for the rest. And here we are, pretending fairness is around the corner while the cold truth settles in: the world belongs to those who take without guilt, who use without mercy. Kindness is weakness. Empathy, a liability. The soul is currency no one wants to buy. Sometimes I wonder if the good are just ghosts in this system—forgotten, erased, slowly fading into silence while the vultures feast. No grand justice is coming. No reckonin...